Have to Hurry, Have to Wait

I'm walking in mental circles....hurry....wait...hurry....wait. Sheer panic sets in because I've not prepared much of anything, but pure exasperation when I do try to prepare since so much of the preparations hang in the balance of....wait for it...THE REFERRAL.

We've bought a few outfits for posterity. But in actuality, we may be referred a boy, who may be anywhere from 6 months old to a toddler. I doubt very seriously that Bobby will let me put a pink and purple flowered onsie on our little boy even if I promise not to let him out of the house. (Yes, we have a name ready for a boy too, just in case. Crossed that off the list ages ago.)

The weather is the other x factor. I've all but given up on guessing the season of the year we'll travel. How can I plan my packing list if I don't know if we'll be travelling in the scorching heat of the summer or the cool fall. Can you hear my keystrokes getting faster and the high-pitched scream? Okay...let me just take a moment to breathe. (And, sip the margarita...instead of inhale it).

I've once again begun compiling T.H.E. L.I.S.T. It is both my life saver and pit of despair at this point. My list actually has columns now that includes me, Bobby, my parents (each has their own column), and Kayla (just for kicks). That's right. I have started compiling *their* To Do lists as well. I'm outta control here!!! At least it gives me something to focus on during the most dreaded last two months of the-wait-to-referral. I am still clinging to that time line with all my might. But it is also a reminder of everything I will need to get done during the second most dreaded wait...the-wait--to-TA (travel appointment). From what I understand, this will be the most brutal (but so worth it) wait of the entire journey.

For all the BTDT who might be following this...please point me to your favorite *Lists*. For the rest of you, please tell my family this is normal nesting tendencies and that I do not need therapy (yet).